Soggy Froot Loops

My brain feels like a bowl of soggy froot loops
And the saline nasal spray makes everything smell like dirty band-aids
I want to throw up my brains, i want to vomit my brains
Oh no, the dog is licking the floor again
And i've been constipated for months
And i can't sit down and my vision keeps changing
And i'm having difficulty swallowing
And i can't feel my arms when i wake up
And i need to keep moving
And everything is tingling
And i'm hearing voices
And i have no emotions that are my own
And nothing keeps me entertained
I have to chew my food equally on both sides of my mouth
And i count my teeth with my tongue
Twenty times clockwise
And 20 times counter-clockwise
Until it gives me a headache
When i cut an apple into pieces
They have to be perfectly aligned to each other in a fixed position
Then i eat them numerically and i use my whole head to chew
And i hear voices in the other room
And if one of my ears gets touched
I absolutely have to have the other ear touched
Just so it evens out
If it evens out, i'm fine.. and then it's like nothing ever happened
When i clip my nails that entire day is a write-off, just forget about it
If i see a crumb on the carpet i can't concentrate on the tv
When i watch csi, i continually remind myself that i'm watching csi
If i'm in the mall, or anywhere that the flooring is tiled
I make sure i walk in each square and not touch the lines
If i step on a line i get paranoid
And i have to go back and start all over again
I have to count each pixel, i clean the mouse, i can't stand itunes
I pull my hairs out one-by-one
When i look in the mirror, all i see is a short, fat 12-year old
And i always have to go to the bathroom
When i masturbate and it goes nowhere
And i'm obsessed with chlorine
When i make eye contact i have to move my eyes in circles
Then i have to bisect the circles with one perfect linear eye movement
And i always get it wrong and i have to do it over and over until my eyes hurt
I think i left a tampon inside me and i can't find it anywhere
And i want my belly button removed
And i need tranquilizers
And i'm horrified..
The positive poetry doesn't do shit
And i'm sexually attracted to prime numbers
3, 5, 7, 9, 11
Even saying that makes me get really turned on
And i spend too much time on the toilet for no reason
And i see gas particles colliding in the air
And today i was eating a burger and i thought i was eating fries
And when i was eating my "fries", i thought i should be eating my burger
Even though i was already eating my burger
And i made eye contact in the mirror with my dog
And i feel so ashamed
And when i sleep i hear a baby screaming and crying
And then i wake up and realize that it was me
Then i sterilized the screwdriver
And take zantac's before bed and abilify in the morning
And alternate between tetris and masturbation
And my eyes keep blinking
They're blinking and blinking like a clown
A mentally retarded clown with blinking eyes
I used a stopwatch and it was hopeless, worthless
I'm a worthless abortion and how am i supposed to go shopping like this?
The handbag is in five different colors
And they know i have to buy each color
And they always do this to me
And i jiggle the door handle
And i jiggle the door handle
And i want to stab myself in the head
And now i'm crying again and i can't stop crying