A Little Debbie

The pills were wearing off during my abortion
And all they gave me was a little debbie
I'm an abortion, my dreams are abortions
And i'm crawling inside of them
I'm inside someone's body and i can't breathe
There are other people inside of here too
And i'm suffocating in the guts
I always use a ruler to draw circles
And i took the kalms but they made it worse
And it won't stop and i'm just exhausted
I can't lose my scholarship! i can't lose my scholarship!
My thoughts are racing but my mind is moving so slowly
And i can feel every nerve under my scalp
Crawling across my skull like electric spaghetti screaming
Screaming in agony as their last shred of hope is completely annihilated forever
I obsess about my dog, i can't leave him at home, he'll pee in my shoes
I played with the padlock so many times, so many times
I have to shake the one leg
The same amount of times as the other leg
Or i'll start crying again
And then i'll shake uncontrollably and scare the dog
And then he'll pee all over everything
And i'll never get the dog pee out of the pantyhose
And then everyone in the world will hate me
I'm surrounded by people that hate me
And i think i'm gonna pass out again
I need to make more affirmations, where's the sticky notes?
I keep them in the exact same place and they're not there!
I drink gallons of water and my mouth feels so dry
When i was younger i let the dog lick me down there
And i feel really bad about it
And i tried using instagram
But it keeps logging into my other social networking accounts
I try to make a list of affirmations
But i have to keep erasing them and starting again
I have to write them over and over again
Because i don't want people to think i'm a slob
I can feel my tongue..
I can feel my tongue squirming around in my mouth like a worm
There's a worm in my mouth and it just tells lies and lies
And i wish i could just fast-forward it all and get it over with
There's amoebas crawling all over me
And i'm running out of rubber gloves
I wish i could just take my entire head apart like an appliance
And rinse each individual part with vinegar
The brain lock didn't help, nothing helps
Hold on, i need to clean my teeth again
I need to clean them every 500 words
Oh god, the dog peed on the hardwood
I went to a restaurant and i couldn't eat the food
Because the waiter touched it and now it's diseased
I put it in the microwave to try to kill the disease
But it didn't work and now i have a headache
And i feel like i'm dreaming
I got the costco hearing aids and now i feel sick
And i'm spacing out and snapchat fucked me up for life
And the abilify makes everything feel wet
But the effexor makes the surfaces feel peaceful again
And my mouth makes whiny puppy sounds
And it's so humiliating because i sound like a clown
And everybody is laughing at me in their heads
I can feel a pseudo-seizure coming.. !