Crying On Gacy’s Shoulder

My boyfriend doesn't even follow me on twitter
He favorites selfies of girls he doesn't even know
And he won't even add me on skype
Like, there are times i go on his timeline to see if he's tweeting
And i think he blocked me
I was waiting all day so we could facetime
And he just talked to other friends on facetime instead
I love him more than anyone here
I took the whole jar of pills, but then he called
So i made myself puke before they took effect
I cut my arm to shreds anyway
I threatened to break up with him
Because whenever he lies or does things
He refuses to take responsibility
And he never says he's sorry
Yeah ok whatever then break up with me
And then i swallow more pills
And text him the pill bottle
And he ignores it so i have to puke them up again
And then he keeps favoriting pictures of other girls
And i text him like what the fuck?
And he swears he loves me
And that he doesn't mean those things
He was just mad but he always tweets other girls
And i tell him i love him all the time
And he just says ok.. ok
And so i said why? and he said he doesn't like doing that
But he used to.. he says he misses me and i ask him what he misses
He said my big breasts and nice ass, i said ok but what else?
He said the battery's at 3 percent, he said he'd get back to me
I said ok, at least it was something sweet
I wish he said i had beautiful eyes but my eyes aren't that great
I hate my eyes, he said no girl should even be talking to any guy
Unless she's with him, cuz he's the man
And i can only wear certain clothes with him
But then he doesn't text me unless some other guy texts me
And then he flips out then he says everything over
And to go swallow more pills cuz i'm a slut
But he took it all back after i gave him a blowjob on the bus
But then he acted like he changed and i guess he changed
And i believe him but then he deleted me
He says it's cuz he doesn't want his ex's feelings to get hurt
Cuz he loves me so much and that would hurt her a lot
So that's cool, he doesn't message me when he's sober
He said he was dog-sitting at a friends house
And he'd get back to me later, then he just played videogames
But i gave him oral because fair is fair
But then he just watches cartoons with his friends
And he doesn't answer my texts
And i had to go to the hospital with my grandma
So i couldn't bring my phone then he got mad
And said i'm a lying whore and now he doesn't text me
He says he'll talk to me in public but only when he's drunk
And i miss him like crazy, then he comes over one night
And says he wants to be with me and i said ok
So then he just lies on top of me and i feel his weight on me
But nothing's happening..
And i ask why? why? what's happening?
And he said be quiet and that he's thinking about stuff
And i guess that means he must love me to trust me like that
I don't know, then he gets up and leaves and later he texts me
And calls me a slut and i say why? he says you know why
But i don't know why, maybe i'm too needy?
Or maybe he does love me and is just too afraid to text it?
I text him back and say you can come lay on me again
He says he doesn't know what i'm talking about
He says i'm smoking the lightbulb again
And i tell him no way, i can't i'm on probation
And then he did the sweetest thing
He liked my facebook profile pic
He said he wants to try my cooking next time he's drunk
And i said well what do you like?
And he said just order domino's that's his favorite
He told me that i just needed a spa day
And that he isn't lying, he loves me
More than he could ever say
So that's why he doesn't say it