The MessAge

[Interlude 1]
Welcome
Now here I am
Standing here again
On the crossroads
Between these two paths
And I want to go the right way
And I really try to go this right way
But the results of my disadvantages
Are pushing me further
And further
To the darker side
Is it my own fault?
Mine and only mine?
Is it just how it has to be?
When I feel like
I'm just wasting myself here
But there is no way that it could change
Is there really no way I could fix what used to be broken?
Like everything in this mess is broken
And sometimes I just don't know what to do anymore
You know?
But I try
I try to overcome myself
And all these obstacles
To gain more motivation
And prevent myself from losing it
Trying to put more effort on all of the things that I do
Either physical or mental
Because when it's all done
It gets to my head
That I can change
I know I can change
And affect on everything
That has been around me
Shorter or longer
Throughout my entire life
I can let all these people help me
And I can also let myself help them
But, you know, how it all goes
It all depends on me
So now
Let me rise
Climb on the top of my world
Start the new age
And become the king of the mountain
Being my own life
To finally feel complete
And I want to stay
Stay here as long as I can
And live it all to the fullest
I have to take my chance
Before again
It's all gone
And I'm here
Leaving this messAge

[Interlude 2]
And who the fuck do you think you are, huh?
You are nobody
You are nothing
Yes, you're right, you dont belong here
We don't want you
Nobody wants you
There is no one that will help you
Your screaming is meaningless
You just act like you're hurt
Other people have worse than you
You don't even deserve to say that
You don't deserve to say anything
You don't deserve to be anything
You are a loser
You will always despise what you have become
That is what God created you for
Nobody cares about you
You're not important
You're not special
You're mediocre
Why won't you give up like you always do?
Nothing more than disappointment
A disgrace to us
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You will never be happy
You won't achieve what you dream about
Your dreams won't come true
You will always regret what you have not done
Nobody will understand you
No one needs you
Your life is an illusion you have created
Your life is a failure
You are a failure
You will be alone
Misunderstood
Forever

[Verse]
Following it all into a hollow alternately trying to climb out or fall down and somehow justify
Pushing the throttle and avoiding every battle, but it's really hard to run away if they all are here just to fight
Unjust if I want to only reconcile as much as I can but I've been only bringing myself much stress
Ingesting finally that I will never know what will come in my way and I gotta just come through it I guess
Already've tried to not suspect that but I have to be ready for things unexpected
Be steady in all I've perfected, not let it fall in me and become rejected
But everyday I vary between staying or running and it's hard to get to next page
Knowing that every moment I may be closer to being left undone leaving this messAge