Corrupted

[Verse 1]
Another evening when I look through the mirror on my skin
Trying to find the meaning of what I'm feeling deep within
Filled with hatred and with anxiety when thinking 'bout any sin
But I gotta be the one to take the bullet when you pull it, I indeed feel it again and again
And more often than before when I did not have such experiences and knowledge 'bout this place
Off in the reality the time took me and I try to be more careful seeing any face
But another round is coming, I'm moving around in this dominant race
And if this hound doesn't want to belong there, they're stabbing another anonymous waist
All in my head, but I want to take it back in real life
Run around the corner, either with the rifle or meal knife
See them all alone and giving their amusement the red light
Bringing hotties when I'm burning the bodies at the midnight
I would want to not care just like all of them if it's right
Don't give a shit hurting everybody, there's no hero
Wondering if I could be the one that you will not prepare for and I get 'em all thinking they're important but ended by, in their eyes, zero
Visions of mass homicide of all of these people that did me really wrong
Even if I know inside that I'm full of these wicked thoughts for so long
But I could not really be able to do this, that's why I'm now writing this song
Maybe it will help me a little living with all these scenes in my mind counted among

[Chorus]
I want to get away, don't want to stay
Even though I know every day will be the same
But I won't, myself collapses in me
And I'm gone, but nobody cares and will never see
(You don't believe, there is reason, can't you find it?)
Tell me then, why do I feel so corrupted?
(Hard to be retrieved from the scenes making me haunted)
Tell me, why do I still feel so corrupted?
(Struck by the hate, I absorbed and never dropped it)
Tell me then, why do I feel so corrupted?
(Is it too late, will no one ever stop that?)
Tell me, why do I still feel so corrupted?

[Verse 2]
Is it too late to change something in myself, even with this text?
Is it my fate hard-breathing while not being sure what will happen with me next
Every time you're doubting me and when I feel I'm not proud of me?
Hard to be prepared for what I can't see
I cannot take it and I cannot make it any easier for my brain
With this hate and my decreased self-rate, you see that is here giving pain
I be pacing and racing but I cannot outrun it, it will maintain
I'm facing it, but it's embracing me, my every single vein, ain't it something humane?
But as I walk down this lane I do not see all this getting any better
Oh, how can I even explain this to make you understand content of my letter?
Have started reacting so cold since environment's putting me in the cage
What a crazy stage, but when I'll get old will you hear me in this mess-age?
No matter who I will be called, I feel like not everything's right, it's not rather
All these emotions for years I've hold make me think 'bout that and there's still more to gather
Some things that cannot be told, but why saying something I always have to bother?
And why do I feel like it's all my fault? Is it just because I want to be another?

[Chorus]
I want to get away, don't want to stay
Even though I know every day will be the same
But I won't, myself collapses in me
And I'm gone, but nobody cares and will never see
(You don't believe, there is reason, can't you find it?)
Tell me then, why do I feel so corrupted?
(Hard to be retrieved from the scenes making me haunted)
Tell me, why do I still feel so corrupted?
(Struck by the hate, I absorbed and never dropped it)
Tell me then, why do I feel so corrupted?
(Is it too late, will no one ever stop that?)
Tell me, why do I still feel so corrupted?

[Verse 3]
Within all these years I've felt these things so many times
Searching for reason, one of the methods is my rhymes
But I still cannot figure out how sometimes I feel like within ages everyone dies
But I'm becoming bigger, I am immortal, don't even know if these are the lies
And that all is just an mistaken way of thinking from my imperfect mind
Or is world becoming forsaken, staying although is my destiny, you are all blind
I could take you out, not like my thought that I'm really one of a kind
That it's all for what humans fought, but what soon nobody will find
What I'm trying to say is I'm not capable to understand how is it possible
That I'm living here doing so much with variety of things, though I will have to pass 'em all
When I will be dead, but how can I 'stand what I'll have instead of life?
Meanwhile there are thousands of millions of the people that only care if and how they will survive
How can I fucking stand existence of so many people being so conscious and thoughtful?
Like me on this track, but I don't want this back, my curiosity can be such awful
It's too much for my brain, that cannot be explained, I wanna make it finally done
But how could anyone realize what I feel when I am not anyone?

[Chorus/Outro]
I want to get away, don't want to stay
Even though I know every day will be the same
But I won't, myself collapses in me
And I'm gone, but nobody cares and will never see
Tell me then, why do I feel so corrupted?
Tell me, why do I still feel so corrupted?
Tell me then, why do I feel so corrupted?
Tell me, why do I still feel so corrupted?