October 2nd

[Verse 1]
Another time I'm feeling down
So many years, yet I'm still around
Nothing has changed and there's nothing to change
The book never written, can you flip to the last page?
I am the scum of this earth, I am the ugliest alive
So hard to look in the mirror without the tears in my eyes
I look at bushes and trees, they look back with shame and disgrace
I tried my worst and I can't, worthless is all who I am
Thought I could put this on paper and say it to you
So I would cleanse my soul from these nightmares it's been through
But every time I think it slowly starts to work out
It gets worse than ever, everything is doubt

[Chorus]
It is October the 2nd, the manifesto of the dead
No reason to say I'm alive, ashamed of what's in my head
It is October the 2nd, the manifesto of the worst
Just simply leave me to rot, please never give me a hearse

[Verse 2]
And please, don't look at me ever again
Don't say no excuses, we could never be friends
Fucking paranoid when I search for you to betray me
No way you can save me
I don't expect you to love me when I cannot love myself
Even though I could do so much for the one that would help
Make me feel that we need each other, something I've never felt
And now do what I deserve and put me back on the shelf
Too much to handle, I'm in too deep
The air's like sea, I drown, not breathe
Forever a weirdo, forever a creep
Tell me it's just a dream as I cry myself to sleep

[Chorus]
It is October the 2nd, the manifesto of the dead
No reason to say I'm alive, ashamed of what's in my head
It is October the 2nd, the manifesto of the worst
Just simply leave me to rot, please never give me a hearse