Persecuted

[Verse 1]
Nothing seems to be like it was supposed to
All my dreams slowly flee away to the unknown
Do I believe in me? I think not anymore
Too many people here again to disappoint
But do you see what I see? Do we live in the same world?
I don't feel free, disagree, want to abandon all
Though I don't need enemies, 'cause it's already for me
Hard to sleep, hard to breathe, hard to live in this horror
Live with this tremendous sorrow
Knowing that nothing exciting will happen tomorrow
Knowing that only anxiety hitting me right in my soul
And making me fall is the one which I will follow
And every damn day same pain stays same way
May the sane grey brain pay so much?
Doubted by everybody just lay and decay
Trying to say what I'm about to the surrounding ones that feel so top-notch
Trying to make them listen, but it seems like I'm missing
Like if I broke through the side of my head with Smith & Wesson
It wouldn't change anything
Doesn't matter how you can call me, my phone does rarely ring
But I'd better get up and bring myself out to make it end, not to begin
So I can win taking over my sins and I can grin
Confidently, not gently refusing everything
With what's really going on with me hidden so deep within
And what was the origin?
Of all these things hard to utter from over the chin
Feeling like a banished king, power's vanished
Only left with the uncompleteness pinned
And I just sit here, write and think 'bout all I've waited for and what's gone with the wind
Stuck in this frozen hell, not able to get out from this realm without any hint

[Chorus]
Persecuted by the thoughts of how I'm wasting all the time but when I want to step forward I always doubt myself
How to change it is the question that's taken over my mind and I am looking out there for anyone down to help
Because when I'm all alone I could not be able to withdraw from this incompleteness I suffer from in pain
(Like every second of my life has been drained)
Persecuted by the thoughts of all this fucking hesitation, I just gotta eradicate it but I need a hint
'Cause that all I've done and all I haven't came up to just nothing and if that keeps on going soon I'll be gone with the wind
So do they even care or should I just prepare to end up stuck between life and death?
(And nobody's here when I'm holding my breath)

[Bridge]
And after all I'm still asking: what am I doing here?
Designed to fall, I will not rise and that's my biggest fear
And as I see I don't belong there and nowhere near
Afraid of being left undone when death will whisper to my ear

[Verse 2]
But what do you hear from what I do speak? Why don't you want me to make everything clear?
My face I do tear, I'm only a freak alone in this world that looks so insincere
Am I able to ever achieve my peak not even knowing as what it could appear?
Though I can only feel my emotion leak that starts to become enourmously severe
And now I'm telling you 'bout this switching to next gear, because this is my style of rapping, not a way to compete (no more)
But I know that regardless of what I say still they will bring their hate up and bring my head down to the concrete
Not only as so-called artist, but it hurts my whole self, oh well, I feel so obsolete
And it's all rather my fault that I don't feel complete and sometimes I wonder if I could just delete
But I'm here broken, hard yn this situation to mute
But I'm choking on every single one of your disputes
Sick of this, though can I finally be the one who's walking resolute
Through the path of my life and I want to be rightful person worth any tribute
After all my sins will be distributed
And I will become another soul substituted
Will it be what I want - my whole life fully executed?
Or to the very end I will never stop getting persecuted

[Chorus]
Persecuted by the thoughts of how I'm wasting all the time but when I want to step forward I always doubt myself
How to change it is the question that's taken over my mind and I am looking out there for anyone down to help
Because when I'm all alone I could not be able to withdraw from this incompleteness I suffer from in pain
(Like every second of my life has been drained)
Persecuted by the thoughts of all this fucking hesitation, I just gotta eradicate it but I need a hint
'Cause that all I've done and all I haven't came up to just nothing and if that keeps on going soon I'll be gone with the wind
So do they even care or should I just prepare to end up stuck between life and death?
(And nobody's here when I'm holding my breath)

[Outro]
Like every second of my life has been drained
And nobody's here when I'm holding my breath