Nothing

[Intro]
Why should I even do it
When it won't change anything again?
Why do I even try
When in the result
Everything is even worse
Everyday I hope to overcome myself
And make everything better
And I try my best to do it
But something always has to slip
Doubted by world, by myself
I'm alone in this place
Stuck with no perspectives
And no one to understand my suffering
With an eternal regret
Why does it always turn out so tragic?
Like it was better if everyone got rid of me
And now I feel
Like I am nothing

[Verse 1]
And I don't even know
How to begin this song
Unborn seed never grown
Everything has gone wrong
Where do I truly belong?
I've never known since the birth
Stuck in this world, stuck among
These people making me hell on earth
Don't tell me 'cause I know I have always been far from perfect
Instead of improvement though I reached the bottom, it's been a fact
Emotionally dismembered, but the peace I didn't earn
Nothing I have ever learned and my dreams I ignite and burn
Is it the point of no return? In sorrow, regret, own tears I drown
No help here, everyone turned against me 'cause I've let everybody down
So take my crown I've never been given, the king of my own lies I've been living
I'll never 'stand myself, I'm worthless and unforgiven

[Chorus 1]
How can I see it when everyday I go blind?
No one understands me, you don't know what's in my mind, you don't know
I always try my best so why do I make it worse so often?
It's not my world anymore and I'm becoming nothing

[Bridge]
Is it what I deserve?

[Verse 2]
You know, I've always felt the difference between me and these people around
Although I feel the distance I try to connect with the sound
But something went wrong with deliverance, the letter was never found
Every day could be an instance how from all people surrounding me
Everyone's doubting me, not letting me being proud of me
Of course I'd rather be one of them, but would something be left inside of me?
And as I think I start to believe that it is not them
Maybe finally I conceived it is who I am
And when they laughed or raged at me I felt the guilt and I was right
It's all my fault and the result of my mistakes I did provide
But whatever it takes I cannot prevent it, get better at it, even when I try to fight
Indeed a tragic conflict
Or how I only want to justify
Soon I'll be gone, why should I not give up when change for the better is for me too tough? And
I worry they don't want to talk about me, but I also don't want them to do it so often
I wanna be alone but I want them to be here, paradox leading me straight to the coffin
But I already feel dead, feel like I am nothing

[Interlude]
I already feel like I am dead
Like for all these years
I've been commiting suicide in smaller amounts
But how would you feel
Realizing that you live in your own lies
And wasting yourself
Being too conscious to ignore your weaknesses
And being too weak to step up to the comfort of your consciousness
It is who I am
A protagonist of a perfect tragedy
Want to get better - and stuck the same
Want to make something better - but I always make it all worse
Want these people to ignore me and to care about me
And there is still hope left within me
And it is what's killing me inside
And even though I know it
I just cannot accept
That I've become nothing

[Chorus 2]
How can I see it when everyday I go blind?
No one understands me, you don't know what's in my mind, you will never know
I've always tried my best so why do I make it worse so often?
It's not my world anymore and I'm becoming nothing

[Outro]
And I cannot change it
Cannot accept it either
I am the chosen one to suffer from this pain
But you don't even care, do you?
I am just another stressed out teenager
Another rapper with another song on the another album
And it means everything to me
But it means nothing
I mean nothing
At all
Nothing