Somewhere in Between

Somewhere in between antisocial and introverted
It's hard to tell the difference lately to be perfectly honest
And it's a problem, I don't know how to stop it
Because it's always been my nature to listen more than I talk

And I'm constantly second guessing shit
Try to rehearse conversations that may be relevant
Subconcious self deprecation’s become a detriment
Musics the only thing that im possibly better at

And I been desperately searching for other avenues
Of inspiration past being angry or in a sadder mood

I've been way too hung up on the past
Can't take it back but
Who I've grown to be now knows that
Facts of the past ain't always the present truth

My days as good as Im willing to let it be
Reciprocate energy
Can't account for the entropy of the universe channeling
Different challenges ahead of me

But I can do my best to meet
Necessities of the test
Without it getting the best of me

Taking notes and always questioning
The lesson I should be learning
And it's affect on me

Because I feel there's a reason for almost everything
But it's on me to find purpose in why it's happening