Drag me down

[Sample]
"Something has changed in you. Towards me. You're distant, cold. I don't know what I've done, but I'll leave you alone from now on if that's what you want. Is that what you want?"

[Verse]
The night sky feels soft tonight
It makes me wanna get lost tonight
I kinda wish that we could talk tonight
No one to catch me if I fall tonight

I'm all alone with my thoughts tonight
I don't know why but something's off tonight
I couldn't say what's going on inside
Outside I act like everything's alright, but

I've realized there is still so much I hide
To try and ease their minds
Behind these small white lies
Starting to pile high

I look into the sky
But I can't see the light, no more

It makes me wonder why I live this life
Cause I feel dead inside
Lost in this head of mine, and I feel terrified
Cause I ain't scared to die, and i don't wanna live no more
No not like this

It makes me sick, and goddamn I wish
That I could go back, to when I was a kid

Life wasn't perfect, but it sure beat this
Cause now if I'm not sad, it's like I can't feel shit
I swear I can't feel shit

I can't imagine this is how my life was meant to be
Cause ive lost almost everything, even my memories
And everyone will leave for better things eventually
Just know that I'm the only person that is truly dead to me

[Chorus]
Try to get it all back but it's been lost too long
Still too caught up on the past and the things I've lost
I'd like to think that back then, i had it all
But to face the facts it really wasn't much at all

But it's more than I have now
The weight of the past gonna drag me down