NEVER SAID

Didn’t mean for it to be this way
You walked out shut the door right on my face

It’s like I never existed, I’m a ghost
I know you couldn’t stand to watch me deteriorate
I always thought that you would stay
But you had too much on your plate

I guess we’re afraid of what we could say to each other
Then something that was never said
Cus we call these moments everything
You always loved my hollow cheeks

Cus I’m dancing with forever
Knowing that it would turn back and never work out
So we push and pull each other
Watch the skin tear and I rebound back

You mеdicate with things that made me worsе
Strapped to the bed, it’s not fair that it hurts
The guilt came like wolves to my skin
How they wait at my home for me to return

Didn’t mean for it to be this way
You walked out shut the door right on my face
You hate how I lose my days to sleep
I lost count of many it's been

Cus you left flowers on my desk
Yeah, maybe I was always gone
You left wounds they always seem to return
Pulling out stitches, god it hurts

But dear you know I have to open the door
Taking the first steps, I hate how you mourn
Concrete veins, blind tounges, heavy eyes
I don’t get how your heart still lies

I was fearless way back before I was cursed with you
How words can't be put to paper of how much you helped me through
It took me years for me to brave myself on my feet
But now you’re gone its as if it was all for nothing

We try to stretch our skin between the gap of our love
How miserable we fail, falter, become so weak
Becoming frail, we always seem to break
We let go and never talk of this again

Didn’t mean for it to be this way
You walked out shut the door right on my face

It’s like I never existed, I’m a ghost
I know you couldn’t stand to watch me deteriorate
I always thought that you would stay
But you had too much on your plate