COUGH

I remember when you came to me
You were crying, no, you couldn’t breathe
You were so distressed you could not sleep
I felt the innocence get raped out of me

You got body dysmorphia
You got cuts on your fingers from when you broke your own mirror
You’re so pretty to me, you’re perfect in every way
I try to explain that but you just wanna push me away

You wanna take advantage of me when I was so innocent
Gaslighting the best of me making me think that I really wanted this
But no I didn’t, no I didn’t, now im lying on the floor
My thoughts are like a piss in the wind, im left shaking on my own

Im fucked up now in my own way
Biting on my lips as they ulcerate and the blood starts to pour
Im fucked up now in the headspace
Smoke another joint so I don’t have to deal with my own doubts

I feel your hands on my skin
Ripping my clothes off, pulling me under
How do you justify this
How do you sleep, tell me how do you sleep, man

You make me wish I would die
Cutting me open, leaving me fucked up
It’s burnt in my brain so I stay high
It’s killing me slowly, you’re killing me slowly

You’re flicking that switchblade, put it to my cheek babe
I never thought you wouldn’t see the anger that you dragged me through
You weren’t there for me, I always was there for you
You wanna take about abuse, yeah look at what the anger drew

It’s like your name is engraved into my teeth
Cus every time I date somebody new the topics always about you
Cus I just break in the way that I can't change
Cus every time I think I wrote something new it’s still always about you

Im disgraced to think that suicide would help my mental issues
Not knowing the facts that I need some help, but I know that im alone
It’s like the moon is staring down upon me, yeah he’s hungry for my soul
If I survive through another night is there a change ill be fine

Im fucked up now in my own way
Biting on my lips as they ulcerate and the blood starts to pour
Im fucked up now in the headspace
Smoke another joint so I don’t have to deal with my own doubts

I feel your hands on my skin
Ripping my clothes off, pulling me under
How do you justify this
How do you sleep, tell me how do you sleep, man

You make me wish I would die
Cutting me open, leaving me fucked up
It’s burnt in my brain so I stay high
It’s killing me slowly, you’re killing me slowly