FAMILY HOSPITAL

[Friendly hollow moon why do you weep for me, asking questions of loss and empty sleep, hopeful child resting under families floors, a ghost to the background we watch and weep
If you took my hand, and held me against your chest, just for one minute, I would see the world
Our skin flakes, our love collides, a family once whole now divides.]

It was like one day we just picked up our home
Living on my nan’s couch I felt so alone
I remember my mother didn’t smile for a year
My brother flourished with suicide it was clear

Maybe one day it will all get bеtter
But right now it won’t
Couldn’t see my mother when shе was in hospital
Perishing to the cold

Didn’t really understand a thing about money
Didn’t really know what a hard time looked like
Brother was backstabbed by a few friends
Saw him get death threats it got to his head

Worried every night that he'd end his life
Stayed home from school so I knew he'd be alright
Time passes and everyone changes
You see I faded in the end

It was like one day we just picked up our home
Living on my nan’s couch I felt so alone
I remember my mother didn’t smile for a year
My brother flourished with suicide it was clear

That I couldn’t handle myself turns to ways to numb the pain
Yeah I saw it get the best of me
It’s like that year I didn’t ever exist
Choking on my own sorrow shove it down yeah I won’t be missed

Another bottle down another day gone
Where did time fly, I don’t remember that time at all
On my phone to my best friend, breaking down crying
I couldn’t handle the pain, I knew I was lying

To myself to get through the day
Sometimes it worked. Sometimes I ended up writhing in pain
All these memories start to get hazy
I need to take a step back and rethink my ways

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It was like one day we just picked up our home
Living on my nan’s couch I felt so alone
I remember my mother didn’t smile for a year
My brother flourished with suicide it was clear