It’s a shame

Wheel snaps head turns whiplash vision black
You know im doing fine, so fake I always lied
Suicide on my mind won't live to 35
Am I even alive, no emotion I can’t cry

Don't feel a thing now that the nerves are gone
Anxiety it spawns, feel the chills right in my spine
Ash skin it burns the mental scars they hurt
You can't kill what isn’t alive anymore

Check my phone just to see you hit me up
Yeah I cut you off for a reason yeah just check the dms
It always felt like you were suffocating next to me
We change give up

It's so sad to see that you went to rehab
Im glad your back but your still half-alive man
I always drive past the places that we use to love
Two best friends never talk again man

Cus it's a shame that it ended up this way yeah
Always hitting me up for some extra money
Like even if I gave it to you what's the point
You just spend on drugs just to get fucked up again

Hollowed cheeks not doing well i can see that
All the track marks on your arms yeah I feel that
Cus I always split myself for you
Like why do I put myself through this

Yeah so what is it like to wake up and not feel like your not in your own skin
Well homie let me tell you something
It feels like im a prisoner in my skull
So won't you just break it open and just let me be free

Well mental health doesn't work like that
Did you really think the drugs would put your life on track
Like what did you fucking expect of me
I had to cut you off and just leave you know it killed a part of me

Cus every day I regret not coming back, yeah
Cus Every day it hurts to see your face like that
So lifeless eyes dull it's like someone just took your soul
We both know it was the girl we both fell in love with

She was feeding drugs to make us break, I took chances and escaped
Look at you compared to me, im back on track with my own dreams
Cus my hands were tied when my car flipped
Rearrange my mind just to find out you weren't even a friend