What I Know Now - 2019 Original Demo

[MISS ARGENTINA]
I was hot
I went to parties a lot
I was driving Lamborghinis
Sipping super-dry martinis
In the tiniest bikinis on a yacht

But I was a mess
I was completely depressed
An unhappy beauty queen
Who dreamed to be Miss Argentina
I had such low self-esteem
I was obsessed

But I gave it all up for the netherworld
I've been here forever, girl
If I was more clever, girl
I would've stuck it out
Knowing that life's about

Pain and joy and suffering
Failing but recovering
Too late for discovering
Life can be a big mess
But anything is better than this
Yes

If I knew then
What I know now
I would have sucked it up
And stuck it out somehow
If I only knew
The truth back then
I wouldn't have had my little "accident"

No offence
The life you knew is past tense
And you can forget the sweet reunion
With the loved ones that you knew
Because this place is fucking huge
Excuse my French

Don't be upset
Everyone who's dead has regrets
Ask any Tom and Dick and Sue
Who is waiting in this room
There's a truth that living people just don't get

[COMPANY, alternating lines]
All of the things I left unsaid

Could've gone home but worked instead

I wish I never smoked in bed

I scubaed in the dark, and then I met this shark

Couldn't commit, I never wed

I was anti-vax, now I'm dead

Angry pygmy shrunk my head

[COMPANY, together]
Why did it take death to see
Happiness was up to me

[ALL]
If I knew then
What I know now
I would've laughed and danced
And lanced every sacred cow
I thought I knew
But I was wrong
'Cause life is short
And death is super long

[FOOTBALL PLAYER]
Grew up poor, five miles from Tulsa
Forced to play ball, but I wanted to salsa
Daddy was strict, so I hid my dream away
Pop was so proud when I got drafted
Pushed my dream down, scared that I'd get laughed at
I lived a lie because I was afraid

I was a quarterback with skill
But something in me was unfulfilled
I caught a flight, then I got killed
Never even got the chance
To say, 'Hey Papa, watch me dance'

[INSTRUMENTAL]

[MISS ARGENTINA, (ENSEMBLE)]
If I knew then, (If I knew)
What I know now, (What I know now)

[ALL]
I would've crossed every line
And drank all the wine
Before my final bow

[MISS ARGENTINA (ENSEMBLE)]
If I knew, (If I knew)

[ALL]
The things that now I know
I would ride the highs and cherish the lows
Knowing it's a real quick trip from 'go' to 'woah'

[MISS ARGENTINA]
So before they lower the curtain
Be certain to enjoy the show
That's what I know

[ENSEMBLE]
Life is short but death is long
Here, one minute then it's gone
Thought I knew but I was wrong
If I only knew what I know now