The One You Hate

Push the curtains back my skin starts to unravel
It’s not like ill fucking be missed
Take some pills and enter bliss
Where fogged walls cloak everything and my bed is the abyss

Back then I was trapped in hell
And I couldn’t fucking tell what was real and what was fake
Yeah I thought you were my friend, guess the drugs got the better of you
I had to let you go I had to leave

You were fucking like a brother to me
We watch the wolves in the woodwork chase after the pieces of my soul
Face first hit the concrete
My eyes snap open just another nightmare will I wake again
Just to find reality isn’t really like fucking hell is this a joke
This is not fucking funny anymore

Every day this lifeline gets a little thinner
Hold on yeah just wait a minute throwing up what’s left of dinner
Sick of fucking feeling but that is not what I want
I just want to say that I am happy

Trauma leaks from those red eyes
If you can't understand would you grab my arm and drag me out alive
Fogged up your just a dead mind
Yeah dissociated at fucking best

I feel like I am crawling out of lab x 16
Poltergeist controlling me with memories
Im in the old woods by the doctors’ house
Feel like im out of control can you look into my eyes and say that you remember me