Luminous

It’s not fair that I see your smile, your right there
Unconditional love always giving always care
You were right beside me you never left you always stayed
With your two big brown eyes yeah you gave a grin and

Layed your head down on my sheets yeah
Push the pain down yeah I weep
You didn’t know what was happening or what was going on
If I could just sacrifice myself for you, you’d know id do it all along

Demons climbing up on you, no you can cope yeah you just falter
Wading through the dark abyss, i see your eyes and now they're broken
You don’t got no strength left in your legs so ill just pick you up and
Drag you out until we reach a god who can explain this situation

See thе bones start to stick out of your flesh, medicatеd, losing weight but
Always have a smile on your mind you know that is hard to face this
Watch my brothers fill with concern as your losing balance changing
Into something that we don’t recognize anymore, its not fair

Tell them it gets better, it won’t
Perspective of this change is a joke
Foggy grey blank mind is my world
The change won't come if I stay here alone

Lacerations in my head hurt
Dependency on drugs make me lurk
Losing a best friend feels like shit
I lay my soul in the dirt

Im sick of watching our loved ones fucking leave
What does god want id give up fucking everything
Just to make the one I love stay
Before it’s my time to leave

You better make sure they’re all their afterlife
I don’t care if it’s in hell i’ll make sure im there in time
Just to see a smile on their face
To make sure we are alright