The Coward

Each day just repeats after the next
Seems to always be the same yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah
Try to explain but you just don’t get it
Cus the same thing happened like you just took an amnestic

In my own hell right here, yeah I think I get it
I just write these songs so yeah I can admit it
Cus im lost in these tunnels not making sense
Put a knife through my sternum treat me like I am an experiment

Poor piss pants kid what did you expеct
Did you really think they’d treat you likе an equal with respect
Yeah boot to the face and they left you on the ground yeah
Strap a kid down and medicate till his family is replaced

With a bottle and some drugs on the side yeah
Wake up every morning feeling like I wanna die yeah
Pushed into the trunk and try to kick out the light
No energy no strength just to keep up the fight

So what’s the point in living when you don’t really get it
Yeah 404 connection lost im awkward I admit it
Yeah what’s the point of running when they knew from the beginning
Like who the fuck am I this insanity repeating

So what’s the point of loving when I couldn’t just admit
Just a feeling of disgust in my stomach and its screaming
Cus I hate this hate that everywhere I go
Just the same face, lose touch, everything’s for show

Say its aggravated assault when I punched you in the face
I swear time stood still for a second then its breaks yeah
Watch the consequences start to come around yeah
Running without shoes from the cops living underground

Remember two of us at the landfill
Didn’t want to go home, no choice tears spill
In the family house where the holes start to resonate
Watch the abyss grow in the cracks from your fathers’ hate

I hear you fucking crying through these paper-thin walls
You didn’t understand emotional abuse and now she’s gone
I see you running down the street, not a fear in site
Except the one from your father where he stabbed you in the spine

Three kids residing in the back room feeling pretty shit
Don’t know how to talk about each other’s pains
Until one day they just give up
I still blame you for her death