Inadequate

You ever have those days where you’re just not feeling yourself at all? Like you’re the anti-feeling yourself, like staying away from yourself, but you still wanna go hard on the beat? That’s how I feel

I’m a
Small baller
Cold shit
Feelin so inadequate
Narrow shoulders
Skinny dick
Feelin so inadequate
Mediocre
Never lit
Feelin so inadequate
So inadequate
Feeling so inadequate

Not a boss
I’m an intern
Not a supernova
I’m a white dwarf
Not Jesus, just a carpenter
Trynna sell on Etsy but no one’s buying

This morning looking super average
Nosehairs like a cabbage patch
Go to the gym, eat a lot of kale
Pecs still looking like A and a halves
Getting white hairs like I’m 54
Hairline giving me more forehead
DMX could prolly fuck my thigh gap
Like yeah, Imma fuck that thigh gap
I’m just assuming DMX has this huge angry dick
And I’m sweaty so there’s lubricant
Yelling at me like

So inadequate
You are so inadequate
So inadequate
Feeling so inadequate
Small baller
Cold shit
Feelin so inadequate
So inadequate
Feeling so inadequate

I’m not King James
I’m Kevin Love
Shoot threes but I can’t jump
And every time that I miss a shot
They wanna send me back to Minnesota
I’m not Britney
I’m Kevin Federline
Not Joe Jonas
I’m Kevin Jonas
Not Chris Farley
I’m Kevin Farley
I am pretty much all the Kevins

Damn my friends are talented
Jet planes, they taking off
I’m sittin here on the runway
With a model plane from Toys R Us

Got a lotta friends going Super Saiyan
All I got is really good hair
Got a lot of friends makin big moves
I gotta move out of my apartment
Cuz I can’t afford it
I’m so poor
Dad still paying my rent out here
Then I cut him off like naw I got this
5 months later be like
I don’t got this
My car going
Apartment going
Medical now that shit going
Cuz I barely made few hundo
Over the cut off limit
Now they showing
Me out the door
I’m like wait
Didn’t even make
17K
Pretty sure that’s still poverty level
Damn California
Give the kid a break

Hollywood laughing at me like
Naw you can’t make it
Go back and live with your mom bitch
You are

So inadequate
Feeling so inadequate
So inadequate
Feeling so inadequate
Small baller
Cold shit
Feelin so inadequate
So inadequate
Feeling so inadequate

Not as manly as Hugh Jackman
Fassbender got a bigger dick
I’m Robert Downey with less swag
He Iron Man
I’m Copper kid
Goddamn I’m an everyman
Less Tom Hardy more Jason Bateman
Yeah I’m better looking than Jason Bateman
With way less money than Jason Bateman

Way less money than Jason Batemann
BATEMANNNNNN!

Some days I wake up like
My shit gonna blow up
Like a big ass nuke
Gonna be on Ellen
Jumping on a couch
Like Tom Cruise

Then some days I wake up like
My shit belongs in the toilet
Gonna max my credit
To film a vid
That’s only gonna get twenty thousand views

Gonna text my friends like share this vid
They telling me I suck at texting
Ghost them for two weeks
Then hit em up when I need something
Like a favor
Or validation
Usually it’s just validation
Or sometimes it’s a handjob
I’m get super lonely and get super naked

Can’t grow a full beard
It comes in patchy
And I’m half Persian so
Fucking failed at that shit

I figure embrace it
Don’t run, just face it
Days like this make me real humble
Bend over and take it
Vulnerable and naked
Caught up in expectations
It happens
Some days it happens
Better than spitting that fake shit
I guess

So inadequate
So fucking inadequate
So inadequate
So-- wait hold up--
I wrote this when I was having a really off day and then I read it the next day, and I was like

Goddamn mufucka!
White man cooking up a meal
With his bitching
Get your ass up out the kitchen
You a high class living
Motha fucka
You got nothing to complain about
This the shit that get you down?
Make you pull that tiny violin out?
You a lucky motha fucka k?
Being an artist is expensive shit
Parents can’t afford to let their kids
Quit
They jobs
So they can get Hollyrich
Most never get a shot at this
Show me something better
Show me you aware and
Trash this