What If It’s Love?

[Verse 1]
I like nihilism a lot
I feel safer when I wait for the worst
'Cause hoping always turns my stomach
I despise disappointment so much
I did whatever it took to never have to look behind my back again
I'm passing friends on the street
Like passing trends when we meet
I can't remember anything
Beyond the moments that I think are special
But lately
I've been retaining every second when you're next to me
It feels like you're testing me

[Verse 2]
Switchblade how I've been cutting through the tension
Yeah, the tensile strength
It kinda lessens when you smile
I've been in denial for a while
Fed up and dead tired
I'll admit it when
Every single pen is bled dry
What a motherfucking guy
Everything he's ever said has been a means to an end
And I bet that he'll never be remembered how he wants to be
Stuck inside a rigid dichotomy
I made between the real and fake
I gotta make a scene
To remember every season
Mutilate my mind in search of reason, but
I've been doing great
I'm not lying when I say I'm fine
'Cause I calm down when I look into your eyes
Is that love?

[Outro]
Fuck it all, I'm giving in, I said
Fuck it all, I'm giving in, I said
Fuck it all, I'm giving in, I said
I said fuck it all, I'm giving in, yeah
Fuck it all, I'm giving in
Fuck it all, I'm giving in, I said
I said fuck it all, I'm giving in
Fuck it all, I'm giving in, yeah