Arise, miasma!

Arise, miasma!
Shaking, but why again?
Temperature, external, internal?
Current health, physical, mental?

Check my pulse, it's so frantic inside
(check inner thoughts to then avoid at all costs)
Feeling bad about not feeling my size
(stuck feeling sorry, truly a real lost cause)

Arise, miasma!
Shaking, I remember why
It's information, it's reality
Transmitted by scary telly in my safety

Check the price tag on appropriated pain
(buy one antifa pin and get one more, free)
Not surprised, but not feeling okay
(offline or online, seems to me there is no place for our security)

Wake up at 10
Then sleep again
Wake up at 12
Then sleep again
Wake up at 2
Brush bleeding tooth
Eat at 3pm
Stare at big screen
Then think of death
Stare at small screen
Then think of death
Stare at the news
Hate presidents
Eat at 3am

Stare at the stars
Then feel nothing
I masturbate
To feel something
Ejaculate
Feel disgusting
Wash these sordid hands
Dream of the sun
Dying in earth
Scream at soil
Drenched in stardust
Wake up shaking
Why do I shake?
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