Why Did You Leave?

[Verse 1]
I remember the day I saw you, walking in the gym had eyes on this hispanic girl
Was going through some dark shit then when I talked to you, you brightened my world
Always chat shit up about our day, talking about our every day struggles
And you would come to me for advice, said you had demons you're fighting I said fuck em
I'm here for you until something happens
I'm fighting by your side through all of this havoc
Even when I won't help myself, I'll be there even if my life seems so tragic
Outdoors smelling the weed smoke, can't help but get reminded of you
Wish I could've been there more for you now I'm apologizin' to you
Felt like I left you there to die, at the same time feel like you didn't really care much
Now I feel like I lost something I didn't have, sometimes I feel you had a grudge
And I don't want to make this about me I just wanna know what happened between us
Seems sus, you wouldn't talk to me out of nowhere I want to know why you'd leave us
And I know people love my ego, but sometimes I have to accept defeat
Had this bad feeling about you, a day before I dreamt about you in my sleep
Had no clue why that even happened, never once saw you pop up in my dreams
Then one of our friends sent me a picture of you on the hospital bed looking deceased

[Hook]
Why did you leave? Why did you leave!?
I play your favorite music I still have them on repeat
I've tried to seem like a tough person but sometimes I have to accept defeat
Accept defeat, and try to fight the deceit that's all coming from beneath
Why did you leave? Why did you leave!?
I miss you very much and I hope you rest in peace
The dark has got so close, I don't care if this song makes me sound weak
Every day I live without you my whole world feels dark and bleak

[Verse 2]
This year's different, I've never felt this dark
Every day without you I keep falling apart
Every time I think of you I'm bawling so hard
Making this song you're now carved in my heart
I've tried to be positive, but it seems I can't
Written this shit in blood, this isn't red paint
10 out of 10, I feel maximum pain
Starting to feel numb kind of like novacaine
Feels like I'm on the verge of going insane
Feels like it's getting harder maintaining my frame
Why the fuck is it hard for me to make a change?
Every time I feel happy darkness reigns
Wondering how long this shit will take
For this to go away, praying to God through all this pain
Even when it seems I'm getting lead astray
Cause I know he's the only one that'll stay
Through all these rainy days, hoping sunny days will pave the way
Cause difficult paths you go on leads to beautiful destinations that no one can take away
I've tried to keep that in my head but my thoughts telling me darkness and hate will stay
And no one gives a shit, my thoughts telling me if I think they do that's a great mistake
I've tried everything to smoke or drink the pain away, I even tried crack
Even when it's a quick way to death but I didn't care, I still went to try that
I know she wants me to live a healthy life, I know she wouldn't ever like that
And if my listeners are upset about that I will not go back, that is my bad

[Hook]
Why did you leave? Why did you leave!?
I miss you very much and I hope you rest in peace
The dark has got so close, I don't care if this song makes me sound weak
Every day I live without you my whole world feels dark and bleak