Too Many Insecurities

I hate looking at myself
Need to cover up everything
So they can't see that I'm a fucking mess
I hate the way my voice sounds like shit
Can't even talk normally without getting laughed at
I'm good at nothing
If the spotlight shines on me
I will fuck up my chance at doing my best
This anxiety is putting too much pressure on my heart like your the one crushing it
I fucking hate you and everything you put me through
Wonder why I got no friends?
It's because getting hurt too much will not want me to socialize with anyone else that might do the same thing to me

How many can I take
'Til I fucking end it all