Resting Underneath The Dirt

After so many years of me existing
I can finally forever sleep eternally
Killing every single dopamine internally
Watching myself rot and decay
Laying inside a hole that nobody will ever find it
The cold never bothered me
Resting my eyes fading into black
Looking up at the dead sky
No ball of light to be seen at all

Once you stop texting them first
They will never hit you up once
They said they cared but its been 2 years
And you never kept your word
My chances to speak out will never be heard
My subscription to life will be expired
And the only way to pay for it is to fucking die
The motivation to live will not come to me
The only way to get it is to seek it out
But i dont have any strength left to do it

I wanna know how you would help me
When your the one who made me very insecure
I fucking hate you
I really wanna show up to your place
And burn it to the fucking ground