Keeping A Promise Is Difficult

Once I made a promise to someone
I will break it in a short moment
Either I will forget about it
Or when my brain shut itself off
I dont do it on purpose it just they
Trusted the wrong person for it
They will never forgive me

Once they find out about it
They will be mad or sad at me
Stomping on my rotting corpse
Since making promises doesnt really work
I need to do my absolute best to not
Hurt someone that I'm trying to fucking help
Putting my health first is not an option
Depression is such a deadly toxin
I’m tired of helping mysеlf
Made no progress
Why the fuck am I еven doing anymore

I want to fulfill
What you wanted me to do
You trusted me
You needed it me
And I wasn't there