Thoughts

I have so many things on my mind
I can't seem to think shit right
I don't think there's anyone in sight
Cause all of me falls for your lies
Thought I really lost you
Man, I regret this
What do I have to do to forget this?
Why are you running all in my head?
Fuck, I just wish I were just dead

I keep making the same mistakes
Thinking I will learn from all of the hate
Fuck all the time I spent for myself
"Fuck your emotions" don't place 'em on a shelf
I can't really think straight
Why can't you be real?
Sorry if I talk to much
But damn, it's how I feel
Throwing shit at me
With these thoughts, I won't heal
Love won't save me, it's something that's not rеal

I can't really find things that's for me
"Imma take control" what doеs that mean?
These thoughts are now a huge part of me
Tryna be one, but I'm always number three
Tryna think good thoughts
But it comes out bad thoughts
Can't control my mind, I'm tied in these hard knots
Talking to god, praying to god
Why can't you just tell em? Tell em to stop

I can't find, find it all
Thinking I will fail, thinking I will fall
Tryna help me?
Naw, I'm good
You only bring bad, knock on wood
I don't know if this is really me
I can't really see, see the right thing
Going to bed at night, I can't really sleep
Thinking 'bout how, how we used to be

Why can't you help me?
Help me in the bad times
But you're not here, just bad thoughts in my mind
Thinking 'bout my future
You're leaving me behind
My life's like a pool, I'm drowning
Where's the signs?
Hanging out the edge, waiting to get pushed off
Thinking "is this it?" naw hang on, it's not all
I'm scared, screaming for help, I can't focus
Thinking I'll get saved
My thoughts leave me hopeless