Thinking Cap

If I had one more chance to spark the light in your eye
See the light beneath the dark of weeping heart that won't cry
I imagine how I try to bring you comfort from grief
And heal the pain that once hurt but my lungs hurt to speak
And I feel it as my tongue search for the words I would use
Could I heal you with this one verse as you hung from the noose
I would choose to bare my soul and help you roll with that wave
And try to fill that hole before I'm told of your grave
But how was I to know you seemed unfazed by it all
If I knew you weren't safe I would've embraced your fall
But the wall you hid behind was the kind you can't crack
And with no warning signs to give me time to react
I sat back and shot the shit saying don't sweat the bitch
Women love playing games and they all out for dick
Besides we live to spit and keep it free off the dome
You said word I feel you kid that shit is true to the bone
So we went into the zone and killed a cypher with fact
And before we headed home you asked to trade up our hats
I said it's my thinking cap and I'll need that shit back
You said I'll rock it til I see you and I'll leave you with that
I said word, his hat was fly and had a Y on the front
Gave him a pound goodbye still feeling high from the blunt
Punched him in the shoulder, don't forget what I told ya
He said don't sweat it son cuz the relationship's over
I said word you'll sober up, I'll catch you out on the flip
He said I'll see you when I see you then he bounced to his crib
So I bounced as he did and headed straight for my bed
Got the call the next morning, you were already dead
Put the burner to your head and did it like that
I sat and asked myself why I didn't seen the Y on your hat

Thinking cap and in my hat your caped ya thinking
I couldn't stop a drowning man from sinking
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If I knew then what I know now how would that affect you
Turn a sword to a plow and try to resurrect you
I'll let you know about all the pain that I kept too
Reflect who I am now, I wonder would I get through
I bet you would doubt about the light I let through
I guess you were out before I even met you
Your death was a cloud, a shroud that would protect you
From the rest of the crowd, you were too proud to look for rescue
Express truth about the doubt that was embedded
Should have walked down that route and saw where you was headed
And shed some light to give you sight in the dark
And bled with you that night til you were right in the heart
Cuz right from the start I knew apart of you was missing
But I was too retarded and never started to listen
Now you have departed and imparted me the mission
To finish what we started when we first started spitting
Truth to the rhythm, the wisdom of how we're living
You were driven past the point, faced the joint for years in prison
And no point in living, now when giving the fact
And with that loaded gat you put your brains through my hat
That's a fact I can't ignore, we're more alike in the mental
This resonates the hammer strike that went right through your temple
So I write with the pencil, the instrumental tryna find you
To bind you to the rhyme, a Hip-Hop shrine that you can climb to
To shine through the dark, become the spark in my eye
To reflect the sacred art and touch the heart I can't find
Remind me why I started all the styles I fathered
And why I martyred my heart or from the start even bothered
Imparted me a piece of your essence
So in my presence mothafuckers better see you when I release you in a sentence
In the same resemblance marking the remembrance of my loved ones
Emcees will know your steez every time I free to son one

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