Sorry

I’m sorry
I promised you I’d be there forever and that we’d get married
I know that I said that
But sometimes things don’t go as planned

Sometimes the world is so adamant on keeping people apart that it finally happens and when it does…
Well it’s not pretty
There’s the crying, the begging, the ‘please don’t leave me alone’.
Then there’s the ‘I did things for you’ and the ‘I imagined a life with you’
I know!
I know.
Becausе I did too.

And I know this apology doesn’t change anything.
I mean, no apology can fix a brokеn heart
I know this
But I also know that being in a situation where we can’t talk much
Won’t help us either
And no amount of begging or crying can fix that.

And even though I haven’t been able to hold you
I’ll still miss you being beside me.
Summer’s coming and we won’t be able to talk and I know that what you’ll be seeing is blue
But trust me, I am too.

And I hate saying I need a break but the truth is..
I do.
I push my emotions aside and my anger constantly hides
Because I know if I’m not careful I’ll say something that’ll hurt you
So I don’t.
But the begging and the crying won’t help
And I know it’s gonna hurt because
It hurts me too

Just writing this is making me scream in sorrow and I know my tear-soaked pillow won’t be able to dry when I’m done by tomorrow
And I know yours won’t either because we spent so much time together
Guess it seems like it doesn’t matter.
All that time matters to me, I promise you that