Some Things I Can’t Move On

There a few things that I can't move on
I don't know if I can forget it
But I don't want to start happening again
There was a lot of suffering that I had to go through
Can't go to sleep without thinking about that shit fucking with my head
I want to put my neck through a noose
And let it all end
If I jumped right now will it all go away
Will the pain still be killing me
My mind says not to die
But my heart says the opposite
Walking down the hallway waiting for a school shooter to put me out of my misery
I had to carry this pain for so long now
Will I get to die now in my grave