I’m Slowly Losing My Mind And I Will Never Be Ok

Don't mind me I'm just sitting on my bed
Slowly dying
Too sad to be crying
My brain is slowly rotting
I don't care about anything anymore
Nothing is fun anymore
In the end life is not worth living
Looking up at the ceiling
Bumping lil peep in the background
Gun in my left hand
Phone in my right hand
Why the fuck do I need to be born
In this fucked up world
Everyone is fake to me

When they see me sad af
They ignore it and I don't like it
Got so many fake friends
I got no real friends at all
No one really looks out for me
When they ask me if I'm alright
I say I'm fine but I'm not really fine
I don't want them to worry about my problems