So Alone

Hook
And I've been going through hell (through hell)
Caught in a vicious spell (so vicious)
Blinded by the light, crash course, stumble to fall (don't let me fall)
I'm feeling so alone (so alone)
I think I'm bout to explode, system overload....

Verse 1
Listen....
Ayo I've always been a mystery, this shit ain't nothing new
Always had that loose screw separating me from you
Watched my brother give it all to that concrete zoo
Slid the pen across the page, it was all that got me through
Pain pouring out, writing all I ever knew
Blazing haze through the days, banging beats, sipping brews
Never had a reason to throw it all away
Yes I still grew when my father went astray
Still carried on when my mother left this Earth
Only 16, ripped from the one who gave me birth
A pain that got worse, each day harder than the first
Emotions ready to burst, no script to rehearse
Just wish I could reverse though I know I only dream
There was so much unsaid, times I wanna redeem
And I'm asked how I do it, how I haven't given up
Thing is my blood's thick, it's taken years to build it up yo

Hook
And I've been going through hell (through hell)
Caught in a vicious spell (so vicious)
Blinded by the light, crash course, stumble to fall (don't let me fall)
I'm feeling so alone (so alone)
I think I'm bout to explode, system overload....

Verse 2
I've been locked in my mind
Kneeling and praying, hoping and yearning to be given more time
Those mornings when I'd rise and my eyes saw different surroundings?
Remorse ran its course around me
I'd lost all my grounding and spent my days counting
Patiently awaited to fulfill that vacancy I'd so fatally been found in
Now there's this absence of fear, it's clear to me now why I'm here
Nothing more could interfere, see I learned from those years
Cause I was wrong to ride along letting someone else steer
Got accustomed to the thinking that any given minute I would eventually visit the peak to my limits
And these thoughts are what did it:
What if all the times that I thought I felt alive truly weren't my highs?
What if all I ever find is the drive to survive with no chance to say goodbye?
So keep these words memorized

Hook
And I've been going through hell (through hell)
Caught in a vicious spell (so vicious)
Blinded by the light, crash course, stumble to fall (don't let me fall)
I'm feeling so alone (so alone)
I think I'm bout to explode, system overload....