Here I Am

Verse 1
I was brought into this world June 20th, '88
Was being taught things before I even had the chance to stand straight
Couldn't help it, needed to be raised a soldier
Didn't bring nothing but weight on my shoulders
Got on two feet, started dribbling a ball
Saved a life when I was 7 with a call, from a popped vein if I recall
But that was fate, things weren't great
Shit, at least I had food on my plate
Started seeing things no kid would wanna see
Was forced to bleed
I was made to breathe into a world way different from what I'd seen on TV
NOW things changed, now life was deranged
Figured out a way to make a living cause pops wasn't there
Mom's on welfare, stepped out the door
Faced the world with a brother loading nines
I became the perfect design the streets had in mind

Hook
If I'd ever wondered what it'd be like
Guess I never thought that this would be life
Still here I am, wounded and bleeding
Continuing the journey, pursuing, succeeding
Muted the screaming which triggered my hearing
Polluted human being, figured I was healing
Bigger now for leaving, bitter still from seeing
Injured but breathing, whispers while speaking

Verse 2
Violent visions, emotional scenes
Kept me with dreams that could only be seen if I drew a picture
Side by side with one of the bible's scriptures and so
I continued to lead the life of a girl looking for a way out of a game many others would crave to play
Day by day I would pray that it wouldn't lay me down to decay
Damn, how's that for a living? Constant suspension
It's like, life ain't even in your own possession
But I held mines, lived with discretion and made no confessions
I was never asked questions, what you think?
Hits left pain but betrayal's not the name
Always ran with the realest, in and outta buildings
Consumed hidden feelings, reveal it all in writtens
Damn the clock's ticking, time to really start thinking

Hook
If I'd ever wondered what it'd be like
Guess I never thought that this would be life
Still here I am, wounded and bleeding
Continuing the journey, pursuing, succeeding
Muted the screaming which triggered my hearing
Polluted human being, figured I was healing
Bigger now for leaving, bitter still from seeing
Injured but breathing, whispers while speaking

Verse 3
Found a new reason for breathing and God showed me that from this Earth, I wasn't leaving
Ignored the bleeding, kept proceeding with the devil teasing cause I wouldn't give in
I refused to be the next soul he needed
I was going through it, seeing body fluids
Saw my life's meaning so I knew it
Of course I had pursued in what the streets influenced, let me tell you man
It was me who they seen on the corner holding shit, youngest one on the scene
I done paid my dues, earned my respect
Got out the game but people still don't see the pain
Understand what I'm saying
It's understood that when I pray that price I paid, always blows my mind away
But they'll never get me down to my bottom line or steal my shine
Don't ever forget my design

Hook
If I'd ever wondered what it'd be like
Guess I never thought that this would be life
Still here I am, wounded and bleeding
Continuing the journey, pursuing, succeeding
Muted the screaming which triggered my hearing
Polluted human being, figured I was healing
Bigger now for leaving, bitter still from seeing
Injured but breathing, whispers while speaking