Sloth

Without YouTube, my life would lack purpose
All I’d do is watch vids and use Valves service
Right now I make vids, play games and watch videos
Just consumption, I’m not satisfied with it no more
I don’t feel complacent or content, I feel anxious
I should make another video as a distraction
But not just a distraction cause I also get my moment
The first couple hours of comments confidence bonus
It’s like a midlife crisis I’m not allowed drink away
So I drown my sadness out with YouTube every fucking day
What they say is I’m afraid, that fear’s the route of laziness
But I just think I’m unmotivated and something hate this shit
Like why would I rather play games?
Why would I rather watch YouTube than create?
Why would I rather spend the weekend with my friends
Than sit at home writing down shit on a page
This may sound strange, but school is where I feel safe
I write my video scripts like they are essays
I love times new roman cause it’s risk-free ok
I say I hate it but I saver every fucking day
And I don’t wanna grow up I wanna stay at this age
While everything fucking sucks I admit that it's great
Don’t give a shit I’m a slave to comfort I’m a bitch
Serve it to me on a white plate and I’ll eat it
Present it to me in size 12 font with 1.5 spacing
In times new roman cause it’s perfect presentation
And I’ll read it
But I have to grow up, I can’t deny it
I have to go to college, uni then get hired
Buy myself a little box so I can think inside it
And then write a fucking album where I say how hard my life is
I am empty, I’m helpless
Nah I’m self-centredly selfish
I turned 16 and I feel like a fist just hit my pelvis
Because everybody’s driving round, everybody’s working jobs
But me I’m just a lazy cunt who’s glued to his desktop
Yeah, the thought alone is scary but I got to think about
I’ve got to get my license, get a job, do it now kid
I’ve not been told by no one else
I feel the pressure from myself
As everyday is ticking by, intentions rising, I need help
Something clicked I realise I hate what I’m doing
I don’t want to learn this crap no more this shit is fucking stupid
But I got to fucking do it
I admit that I’m a loser
I am lazy and impatient
I slouch when I am moving
I said, and I believe that facts trump feelings
And I hate hypocrites but I one really
I’m a walking fucking hypocrite oxymoron piece of shit
I wrote a whole album about my feeling like a little wimp
Speaking of the album it’s a miracle I got it out
Watch me now, the sloth rolled off the couch and now he’s dropping sounds
Speaking of the album it’s a miracle I got it out
Watch me now, the sloth rolled off the couch and now he’s dropping sounds