Gluttony

[Verse]
I’ve been on the run from my regrets
But every step I’m taking, I just fell like I regress
So tell me that I’m doing good and tell me I’m the best
And tell me I’m the greatest
I want all your validation
I’ll eat that shit up, gluttonous for all your celebrations
Talk about how smart I am instead of effort I put in
And I make think that I’m gonna win
And make me think that I’m a motherfucking genius
I ain’t shit so why is everybody preaching this?
Just an average joe with an ego
Oh there he goes, shit-talking people
I’m so fucking insecure but you would never guess it
I went months with telling no one that I’m dealing with depression
Like I would never get it, if I’m sad I’ll play it off
I refuse to diagnose myself if getting helps the trade-off
I’ll sacrifice my needs for my image
Never talk about my problems they might think I want attention
And then they’ll go a judge me
I'm tired of this fuck shit
I'm tired of thinking like this yeah I know its self-destructive
But I don’t want you to think that I want attention
And that I’m only saying this because it's trending
Depression what’s selling
You can’t it’s marketable as fuck
And all these kids eat that shit up
But I won’t even judge
In hopes they don’t judge me
I’ve wrote about my feeling still I’m never feeling complete
This shit is going concrete
As soon as I drop it
Everyones gon’ hear me for the first time being honest
And I won’t even lie, I admit that shit scares me
Cause I’m so fucking shy and reveal how I feel rarely
Yeah I'm acting tough not giving fucks, it builds up all this infamy when really my biggest fear’s what other people think of me