Envy

[Verse]
I wanna be cool
I wanna fit in
Don’t feel like I do
I wanna be you
Cause you’re always the best and
I could be at rapping
I’ll prove it with a diss
On some defenceless faggot
If I was someone else
Then I would own the world
Then I would get the girl
And I would love myself
I’m disingenuous
I’ve been envious
I’m feeling disconnected
I want your strongest friendships
I don’t fit in
Should just go and end it
Fucking identity crisis
I seldomly like shit
Where’s the hype kid?
They all think I’m weird
Here take this medication
I just wanna get faded
And faze out of reality
Cause I can’t bear to take it
I know a lot of people
I ain’t close with many
I'm living with my guard up
Won’t open up to any
I'm tryna be more social
I’ll get to know you lately
Most of my friends are mutual
Probably fucking hate me
Yeah I don't know what I want
When my friends hit me up to hang, I blow them off

You're running away, aren't you?