Introduction

[Intro: Phone Call]
Umm hey Ike
Look I-I was on youtube
And I-I realised that you hadn't uploaded in months
So I was just wondering where you have been, if you wanted to talk or something?

[Verse]
I feel defeated
You can see it in my face I ain’t been sleeping
Haven’t shaved within recent
Ain’t been eating right
Waking up for lunch then sleeping late at night
And my sleep is bout as fucked as my priorities
But maybe that’s majority and I should just get over it
I have a feeling that this year’s gonna be more than shit
And I think I’m bout to call a quits to all of this
I’m falling for some bullshit again
I can’t pretend like I’m not
If I stop and look back at my raps when I made them
I don’t think anything except the fact that I hate them
If this talk was any smaller it’d be diagnosed with dwarfism
I’m only talking cause awkward when someone isn’t
How are you I’m doing great
Everything is blue and grey
My mood is changing frequently
And I don’t know what route to take
I’m lead astray, I’m feeling lost
If Jesus died upon a cross
For our sins then why the fuck
My still committing seven of em’
Plenty of us feeling trapped but how the fuck you deal with that
I’ve been keeping to myself, needing help but never asked
I told myself, I’ll work on this project, won’t leave it unreleased
I’ll drop it and then kill myself, ain’t that a fucking masterpiece
Tell us how you really feel, how the fuck you really feel?
You want to kill yourself, yeah you want to kill yourself
And you would do it If you didn’t know it’s stupid
If you didn’t realise all the lives you would ruin
You’re a selfish motherfucker, you ain’t got the balls I dear you
You don’t want to do it with a noose cause suffocating scares you
I need to be more honest, I’ll tell you that I’m fine dude
I know you’re fine as well, keep up that fake smile
I’m scared of getting help, I keep telling myself
Depression isn’t real while tiptoeing on eggshells
I want to be more expansive, but I can’t sing that well
Rap is the best I’ve got, this shit is not acceptable
I’m very sad and lonely I admit it I’m a phony
I admit it I’m a dipshit maybe if I drop this project
Then it’ll give me some closure, I’m closer to both exploding
And self-destructing, so don’t trust the scum in the yellow raincoat