Rainy

Its cause i want it all
I will lose it all
Cause every time i try to run
I seem to trip and fall
I seem to lose control
Over my brain
My pain becomes
Interal
My rain
Only falls on me
Sometimes its
Hard to see
The bigger picture
And be
The perfect mix
Of traits i wanna be
I feed my mind
With all kinds of shit
That i dont need
I bleed because ive
Shot my own knee
Thats why i can't run
From the fear
Everywhere i look
Its always near
My dear
I'm sorry for the times
When i wasn't here
For all the times
When the wheel was
Hard to stear alone
You know
That i love your cologne
And now look
How much we've grown
But i see your heart turning
To a stone
Living life through
Your phone
I feel it breaking
My bones
I hear you changing
Your tone
No longer call you my own
Some feelings that you no longer own
Staying with me
You're not staying with me