Daydreaming

See i live in a daydream
Blowing off steam
Me and my team
My producer my writer and me
Removing myself from people
Bad for my self esteem
What i mean is
I work best alone
Cause i feel others won't get it
Right
Like they would judge me
And all of my fights
Which to me dont seem so real at daylight
But like i said
I hear voices in my nights
I see the wrong in my rights

My anxiety fighting this lame
Product of my environment
Finding the pockets
Killing the last bit of life
Inside of me
Losing people by my fault
Is making me feel so violent
Head underwater
Can't hold my breath or
Get out of it
Fighting it
Can't commit
Morbid shit
Way too heavy
On my mind
I admit
Im not what you want
Right know
But i dont mind
Cause one day you'll regret it
There i said it
Now im losing my calm
Stone cold
Give me some space
My mind is starting to race
My heart is starting to pace
My hands are out on my face
Not something i can embrace
Give me some space
I just need some space

And in my dreams
All i hear are screams
All i feel is white and black
All i see is this
Constant fear of me
Living in pain and agony
Vices i see them vividly
Visions that you could never see
Turning into a lunatic
Silent but never gone to sleep
Violent but imma never hit
My beats finally start to see color
But im still colorblind
But im still way behind
On the fate i gotta meet

I used to talk to God
But not thats something i do lesser
I used to talk to God
Every night looking for blessings
Now my hope shattered down
Where's something i could be the best in
Nowhere cause i can't get it right
And put my money on me
Way too scared too fall
Way too scared of you all
Daydreaming got me
Lusting for more