Now That I’m Stuck At #27

Sitting in the kitchen at 4am with the light off
Trying to remember what it's like to feel alive
Maybe if I go outside and attempt to retrace your steps around The Meadows
Then I might trigger something that will take my mind off
All these sandstone buildings and grey skies
That do their best to keep me dead
But never quite lock my feet to the ground
Now all my halfhearted goodbyes keep replaying in my head
Now that I'm barely ever around, and now that everyone is leaving

I stayed up until 5:20 and listened to the shipping forecast
To remind me of when I slept with a smile
But nowadays I barely sleep at all
I just lay awake with all these regrets
And let them burrow in and expand that hole in my chest
I never even knew that you had plans to go
I was too busy fighting myself to even know
So I guess this won't be the last time that I'm breaking down on the Peace Mile

Now all these sandstone buildings and grey skies
Have got me by the throat
And there's no other way to go but down
And all my halfhearted goodbyes
They don't mean shit, they're all redundant
Now that no one's left around
My pulse is nowhere to be found
I've given up on color and sound
And buried my heart underground

I wonder if you'll ever come back
But when does anybody ever come back