Naked and Afraid

You took my hand and guided me to your breast
I was frozen, crushed between fear and disgust
I wish there were better ways to pretend
It’s not like you care, you enjoy every second of it

You looked right at me and opened your thighs
Then my memories got dark, I blacked out

It’s not ’cause you have fun that I do
There’s this thick black fog around you
It’s not ’cause I nod that I want you
And I do this to comfort you

Denial
Denial
Denial

Why are you so enthusiastic
When I was hallucinating and dissociating
When I was puking in the toilets
You were waiting for me to come back
When I did I fucked a person I didn’t know
You wanted me to learn how to be an adult
Before this I knew nothing about sex
But now, I think I know even less

It’s not ’cause you have fun that I do
There’s this thick black fog around you
It’s not ’cause I nod that I want you
And I do this to comfort you
But I didn’t know
Yeah, I didn’t know
I didn’t know
I didn’t know

Let’s just stay friends