Crying as a Weapon

We sat down and told you
That it all had to stop
You didn’t understand
You didn’t understand
After the rehearsal, in the taxi
I didn’t want you to touch me
You didn’t understand
You didn’t understand

You said
“Could you stay there with me
I’m so cold and lonely”
I said “I will be back
It’s no form of attack”
But you told me softly
“Without you I’m nothing
If you leave I vanish
So go and see this
Girl you like
It’s me or her, be wise”

(I just want you to stop for a second)

We were all on a couch
You didn’t come with us
Instead you left
Instead you left
You came back wailing
After 20 minutes
We knew it was fake
We knew it was fake

You said
“I don’t have my place here
You don’t care about me
And if I was dying
You wouldn’t fear a thing
You always like the sex
You don’t care if I break
You were the one who asked
And the one who came back
Can’t you see I’m in love
You always say we’re friends
We both know it’s much more
I don’t want it to end
And I hate when you say
That what I did was rape
You know it causes pain
And you know I can’t
Take this hate
You’re just so selfish”

I told you I was sorry

I lost my breath
Another panick attack
I lost my breath
I don’t love you back

I can’t take anymore of this abuse
I can’t take anymore of your abuse
Stop shifting the blame again and again
Be an adult for fuck’s sake
I’m tired of the panic attacks and the anxiety
When you cry to make me feel guilty
Now I don’t care you can cry all you want
I won’t be here to clean your tears

I lost my breath
I lost my breath
I lost my breath
I lost my breath