Lifeline

[Chorus]
Wanted to say so much that I couldn’t say anything
Told you I wasn’t ok but you expect it
That’s how it works right?
You’re like my lifeline
I’m like the dark sky
That ruined July

It’s not like things have changed
Still stuck in my old ways
Still stuck in my old room
Still wasting every day

On could have been with you
And if everything you said was even true
I’ve been living like a ghost
Instead of trying to get known

[Verse 1]
I’ve been losing sleep
And I’ve been chasing dreams
I’ve had since I was seventeen
Don’t care about them now, they used to mean the world to me

Now I don’t know who I am
Thought I had this figured out but I’m feeling just as lost now
I want to die just to get away
Can’t live with myself in the same way
Take my hand carry me away
Bury me at sea in the light of day

I feel sick every time I sleep
In my dreams I can’t run away from what’s been haunting me
And I’m stuck in my old ways
Thinking ‘bout the good days
Trying to make a name for myself but I can’t shake
The pit in my stomach I feel when I turn out the lights
Cut myself to remind me that I’m still alive
Same old words on these songs that don’t get any likes
Now I’m nothing, I can’t make a name for myself
When I don’t even like the words I’m writing down
I’m a fuck up, that’s never gonna change
Repressing all these thoughts that keep screaming your name

[Chorus]
Wanted to say so much that I couldn’t say anything
Told you I wasn’t ok but you expect it
That’s how it works right?
You’re like my lifeline
I’m like the dark sky
That ruined July

It’s not like things have changed
Still stuck in my old ways
Still stuck in my old room
Still wasting every day

On could have been with you
And if everything you said was even true
I’ve been living like a ghost
Instead of trying to get known