Hide My Face

[Intro]
Remember when I said I wouldn’t be here next year?
Never made good on that so I’m making it clear
I don’t wanna be here
I don’t wanna be reminded of what I did last year

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna think about next year when I’m still stuck on everything that I held near
Remember hours we spent doing nothing now I feel like I’m going nowhere
Now I’m venting to a hundred people I don’t know
And all I’m thinking about is the plays and the ways that I can hide my face

Missed appointments, Therapy was worthless
Too scared to talk about my problems so I hid them
Two years of distraction from how I really felt
When it’s all said and done I still hate myself

[Verse 1]
Three AM, wide awake, should be sleeping
Praying to a god I don’t even believe in
Memories keep filling your screen
Faces of people that you haven’t seen, and it kills you
So you stay up thinking ‘bout the days you spent with your friends filling your cup
And losing yourself in feeling like nothing cus nothing else helped make the pain stop

But then you found your voice in this scene full of kids that felt the same way on these beats
That sampled the music you liked so you wrote down your problems and picked up a mic
And is it helping you work through this? Or are you just doing it cus you’ve got nowhere to go?
Every time I look in the mirror I’m faced with someone I don’t even know

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna think about next year when I’m still stuck on everything that I held near
Remember hours we spent doing nothing now I feel like I’m going nowhere
Now I’m venting to a hundred people I don’t know
And all I’m thinking about is the plays and the ways that I can hide my face

Missed appointments, Therapy was worthless
Too scared to talk about my problems so I hid them
Two years of distraction from how I really felt
When it’s all said and done I still hate myself