If

[Intro]
I want straight cheese
But this time, I'm made up in my mind
I'm made up in my mind
I'll say
Say, say it
My soul savior
My mind says yes
Take dubs, take dubs
Mhm

[Verse 1]
Whole paychecks spent on some weed
Don't know difference of want and need
Do this shit like every week
I have no money left to eat
My meal tonight is just some sleep
At least I'm high like hand on geek
In classroom when his interest peak
This shit puts my mind at ease
Voice in my head won't let me think
It's fuckin' madness, I'm on the brink
Nigga don't have me no drink
I had too much, puke in the sink
God pleasе, God please, don't let mе panic
Think I'm slippin' and it's tragic
Chokin' on the devil's lettuce
Mind is crashin' like Titanic
Icebergs in the fuckin' water
Child support how I'm tryna dodge 'em
Math test shit, yeah I got some problems
I might explode, bitch I think I'm Goddard
Save me 'fore I am a goner
Brain is haunted like a boneyard
Mixed emotions in a cauldron
Free my mind, I beg your pardon

[Interlude: Cap Jazzo]
I'm sittin' in a cemetary and I'm sittin' in a flurry
Mmm, mmm, mmm!
I'm sittin' in a cemetary and you know it's kinda scary
Mmm, mmm, mmm

[Verse 2]
Indubitably, I'm usually moody and goofy and loosely
Makin' decisions, don't know what I'm doin' or choosin'
My actions hurt me and leave me with bruises
I'm so fuckin' foolish, Ashanti
Please rain on me
Man in the mirror looks disdainfully
Please heal my pain from me
Hands so unsteady, can you aim for me?
I am the best at bein' the worst
Never met happy, I only know hurt
My conscious not clean, bitch I only know dirt
Felt like a bum ever since birth
Felt like the scum of the earth
What I feel inside equals my worth
Nothin', something's wrong but I'm not discussin'
Say I'll talk about it, but I am bluffin'
Beat myself up and I gave concussion
My mind keeps on rushin', my eyes keep on gushin'
My room keeps on floodin', anxiety's here
Depression is budding, hey there old buddy
You're the only one that loves me
And hold nothin' above me
We go together like baby and Huggie
Lower than dirt, I am so muddy
Every single day feel cruddy
Not in control of my life
I feel like a dummy, my sky is not sunny
Nose always runny from cryin' and runnin'
Away from my problems, but they still haunt me
Laugh to hide the pain but ain't nothin' funny
But you'll get a kick out of it like you're punting
I'm suffering, need comforting
Need mentoring, need counseling
But I solve my problems unhealthily
So I bought an ounce of weed
It all comes full circle like geometry
I'm tryna be a better me
Legendary like Celebi
Dark days, dark nights are a bane to me
Silent like library, someone talk to me
Someone call up Kanye and ask him and Jesus
To come walk with me, walk with me, walk with me

[Outro: Cap Jazzo]
The best art is the art that's misunderstood
I believe that
Uh, fuck your ego