I Don’t Understand 3

[Intro]

...Gotta...

(Sniffles)

....Wipe all these snot-boogers and all of this shit out of my face

(Chuckles)
(Sniffles)

You know, I’ve been crying the last two songs I’ve been making
And...

{Sniffles)

Well...
I guess that’s just part of who I am, ya know
I’m kind of a crybaby some times
And people say, “oh that’s not manly, that’s not tough.”
Well you know what, fuck you guys
You don’t know shit
...Probably repessed...
Repressed motherfuckers
I can’t even…
Fuck!
Dude, I can’t talk

(Laughs)

I struggle to talk
I can’t even like pronounce words without stuttering
It’s fuckin’ ridiculous
You know, maybe that’s part of the learning disability from when I was younger or…
Shit, I still have it today, ya know
I always havе these ideas in my mind that arе floating around and I’m thinking about ‘em and I just, I get side-tracked half way through my thoughts and then I stop and I sound like a fuckin’ dumb ass, ya know

[Bridge]

I’m not dumb
I’m smart, but, fuck dude
Appearances can be deceiving
Shit, maybe I think I’m smart, but I’m really fucking stupid
And I guess if that’s the truth, well…
I guess it’s good knowing that I love stupid people
So maybe, people love me
Whatever, here we go

[Verse 1]

Jayden, my son
I love you more than anyone
Well, except your other three brothers
Well, and the truth is, the secret is also your mother
I’ll always love her
Even though we weren’t meant to be
I guess it’s just truth that, well, I see that
Sometimes, I feel I’ve made a mistake
I feel like I’ve made a lot of them actually
A lot of the times I sit up and cry in my bed
Because I think about the things I did
And I think about…

What’s wrong with my head?

I don’t know. I don’t know

(Phone ringing)

I don’t know
But Jim’s calling, so I gotta go soon

[Verse 2]

Anyways, I gotta finish this rap. I’ll call him back
You know what, son?
Give Jax your love every single day, because one day he might be gone, I say
And you know, Owen too
Look at him every day and say, “I love you.”
And Finley, take care of him
And you know what?
God damn it, Jim just got fired today, it’s true
I don’t understand why it happened

Yes, I do

Because he made too many mistakes, but that doesn’t make him any less of a man
You see, that’s the plan that God has in store for every single one of us and you know I abhor
The fact that we suffer and that we go through this shit
But you know what?

If you try hard you can learn to love it and turn it around

And make it something that can be great and profound
So, just be good to everyone
Especially yourself, my sons
Just love yourselves every single day and listen to what your father has to say:

Don’t make too many mistakes, but if you do, well, just learn from them that day

See me, well, I hurt your mom
Not physically, no, but mentally, yes
Because I hurt inside, because of well, a cycle that was propagated last night

And by last night I mean, “like 8 years ago”
No, wait
God damn it, I’m insane again and I just can’t get this straight
I can’t get my fucking thoughts inside of a piece of plate
A piece of cheese
I don’t fuckin’ know, God damn it, I have to sneeze, but that’s not the point of this song
So, God damn it, get back on the point now
Here we go. This was about my four kids, I’m talkin’ about…

[Outro]

Well shit, it’s over already
Well, fuck me