​every atom tessellates

oh well

thinking on the times that i've hurt myself
pushed my friends away, don't need anyone else
but it didn't help, it was all for naught
i faded away and they all forgot
what happened to that girl you once knew
she's about to leave, she'll be dead soon
you let her cut the ties that held her back
there's no one left to stop her, oh well

warm and alone, my blood seeps through
locked in my own rotting mind
stabbing my heart, nothing else to do
the comfortable pain passed the time

thinking on the ways i neglect myself
zip my mouth shut, pretend im doing well
gentle agony beneath my thin skin
no one ever tries to see
what happened to that smile that you used to see?
it was melted off from how you looked at me
disgusting and misshapen's all i ever was
guess i'll just stay here

warm and alone, my blood seeps through
locked in my own rotting mind
stabbing my heart, nothing else to do
the comfortable pain passed the time

a thousand tiny cuts, a scent of ethanol
loving without meaning, tallies up the wall
i forget myself in the dopamine
wounds flow like a stream

warm and alone, my blood seeps through
locked in my own rotting mind
stabbing my heart, nothing else to do
the comfortable pain passed the time
x2

thinking on the times i gave up on me
thinking on my wish for something i can't be
thinking on the times for which i had regret
wonder how i ended up with nothing left