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[Intro]
"Hey fuck that monitor, he probably had it coming anyway. Yeah, just get a new one. Is your hand okay?"
Ken, I fucking hate you

[Verse]
I'm conflicted, I can't make shit, I don't feel the love I fake it
Got this feeling I can't shake it, got this feeling I might break shit
I'm losing fucking patience, I'm finna be a patient
I got drugs all this room and I been trying not to take it
But I can't hold on, I been doing that for fucking so long
I'm so done, I can't open up for fucking no one
I been trying, it ain't working and I know nobody perfect
I know you don't see the anger but I'm not a peaceful person
All that I wanted to do was be in love with you
But I fucked up like I always do
And I can't figure it out, I'm bouta start flippin' out
Let me rot all alone in a forest, fucking up everything, yеah I'm for it
If she call me again, I'll ignore it, got a lot of thе pain where my core is
I got too much shit to say that's why I don't do chorus
It's a never ending cycle, I should not be anybody's idol
I make music singing bout the fucked up shit
That I went through and about the shit that I did
Back to sounding fucking angry at the world and at myself
If you can't find me when you die, then you did not get sent to hell
Everything's a fucking lie and everybody's up for sale
Success is not what you would think if you knew that then you would fail
If that's the case then I'm the most successful person in this place
If that's the case then I'll feel love forever and I never hate
That's the toll that it takes, I believe some backwards shit
I'm phony and I'm fucking fake, I'm more than just a piece of shit
So if you talking down on me you better do it right
Tell me I'm the fucking worst person you met in all ya life
Open up the flood gates of hate and let me drown slow
I'm a sad piece of trash, I'm so down low
Imma fuck it all up again, I'm going back where I been
But fuck it is what it is, so I'm not gonna pretend
I know I'm not who I could be now
But I don't know if that's any good right now
Leave me alone, I know I'm a burden, I just wanna go under where the dirt is
I don't wanna know what I did to deserve this, imma give myself a reason for it