Would you even care

What if I told you
I wanted to die?
That I'm tired of living
Of being alive?
What if I said
It gets worse at night?
The thoughts get louder
And nothing is right
What if I lied
And said everything was alright?
No, I'm not crying
I swear I'm alright
What if I died?
I doubt you'd even cry
Would you even care
If I took my own life?

He lies I tell
The truth I cry
The secrets I keep
They're locked up inside
No one will know
The hidden side of me
How I got so low
How I got this deep
The people that saw
The ones that didn't
They all knew
They just didn't listen
I wanted them to ask
To know they cared
To know they heard
My silent cries of sadness
That didn't subside
But they chose to look away
To pretend like nothing was wrong
But the cuts I made
The blood that fell
The smile I faked
They were all signs
That I was not okay
If they saw past my words
Nothing really ever came out
The answer was in my eyes
They say everything I feel inside

What if I told you
I wanted to die?
That I'm tired of living
Of being alive?
What if I said
It gets worse at night?
The thoughts get louder
And nothing is right
What if I lied
And said everything was alright?
No, I'm not crying
I swear I'm alright
What if I died?
I doubt you'd even cry
Would you even care
If I took my own life?

I'd never reveal what's hidden inside
Living with this awful lie
Masking the pain with fraud smiles
My hopes begin to fade
Faking the days that pass me by
Drowning in my own mind
Realizing there's no hope
I try to forget the hopelessness
I come back to these dreadful thoughts
Why must I be the one to suffer?

What if I told you
I wanted to die?
That I'm tired of living
Of being alive?
What if I said
It gets worse at night?
The thoughts get louder
And nothing is right
What if I lied
And said everything was alright?
No, I'm not crying
I swear I'm alright
What if I died?
I doubt you'd even cry
Would you even care
If I took my own life?

I sit here all alone in this dark scary place
I want to run but it grabs me by the wrist
It's like my shadow and it holding my hand leading me where it wants to take me
To its dark scary land
I want to be happy like I was once before
I want to wear I real smile one that's not a fake lie
I want to get over my pain but I can't its so hard
I wish I could tell all and for them to understand
So here I am sitting alone and waiting for my shadow to leave me alone and to be gone

What if I told you
I wanted to die?
That I'm tired of living
Of being alive?
What if I said
It gets worse at night?
The thoughts get louder
And nothing is right
What if I lied
And said everything was alright?
No, I'm not crying
I swear I'm alright
What if I died?
I doubt you'd even cry
Would you even care
If I took my own life?