Windowpane Monologue

"4:48AM..."

[Verse, L.]
As the night falls, the moments get darker
As the sunrise forms, the closer I embark on a journey of a never-ending cycle apprehending me with trials, suffocating me with vines
Wrapped around a holy spine I'm entitled to

Here I am still finding you
O Heavenly Light, may you guide me through the fire, hellish mythicals around me, in which I'm running from til I am tired
What more do you want from me God?
What more do you want from this two-faced facade?
Wondering what emotion is, fugazi or pure raw?
Eating out my brain like a locust as I call out your name from the rocks near the ocean and the roars
But never louder than the thoughts of where I long to be
But maybe I've forgotten that's an idealistic reality
But lately, I've been following a path that may lead me to obstacles & rockiness
Gravel in my oculus eyes with miraculous decisions in my visor
Though I try with repetition, but what is this?

Is it sadness? Am I smiling?
What is true to lavish in as robots in this life, huh?
Most bots would've lost their way, but no bolts can screw us up to rust away
Rest easy little droid and scan the whole horizon
I've fallen down the hole, feeling lost, living blindly
This is why we keep trying
This is why it all ties down to what we truly want in this time-space continuum, continuing through thick & thin
Losing just to gain a few pounds in this vessel, a container full of lessons
Learned by the burns that scarred the metal wired on me
For I will never settle til I find these pieces and find inner peace in me
Increasing each level like Mach 5 machinery

Please tell me where to go from here
I'm so lost, black and white in here
White noise fill my ears like a violin
Violence in my voice as you say I sin
But what the fuck do you expect from me from deep within?
And where the fuck do I even begin?
So lost in this vast industrial land...

So lost, so lost..
I don't wanna be lost in this again...
I don't wanna be lost in this...