4-Minute Therapy

[Verse 1, L.]
Set me up one time..
Alright..

Now I'm not one for therapy, but my clarity's been blurry
Ever since I've been in my head
What I think about's discouraging for me and those around me, Killing the vibe
Life's like a gurney, I'm on a journey & learning and learning
Drawing out each pattern
But I scurry back to square one, asking if I really deserve it
While the voices keep returning
For it's my choice to have them running up their mouths
So I hear them screaming loud
As I wonder why I'm sad all the time
When I'm the one who won't allow myself to shine
So I'm fucking up the sun, fucking up all the time
That's what if feels like
You ever feel like you're not enough for anybody
While everybody's been tryna cheer you up like you're somebody
When in the end, nobody can make you feel truly happy
Only you
But my doubts with my goals is like a dance with a noose
My family wants me home
But I'm still tryna prove to my dad that I can take these challenges at hand
Been wanting acknowledgement for a long time, but alas
I'm still finding out my craft, prolonging my life in cash
While balancing damn suicidal thoughts in my head
Trying not to be an alcoholic, consuming Henny to feel my best
And though I'd go to bed
I know I'd rather be dead
But although I'd rather be dead
I wanna save lives with my passion, so now I'm still relapsing and running
Retaking laps
And after this, who knows what'll begin?
I just know I'm in it to win it, no matter who's with me
Now who's with me after this?
Who's with me after the isolation created when I just wanted the safety without hurting a soul
And for anyone who knows, you know how the story goes
Before that, may I return to my glory and how I was months ago?
We've been here before
The question is, will my quest to my conquest be the last?
No, but we've been here before
We just gotta keep going...

[Verse 2, blvv]
Trying not to follow in the footsteps of my predecessors
Discovering there are answers I can’t get from my ancestors
It’s up to me, who will I be?
Now that I’m tearing at the seams
Look like ripped sheets
Nowadays counting up my nickels and dimes
Scavenging through em, tryna remember the last time
I had peace of mind
Swear I miss it like my nana's vintage cassette tapes, wish I could rewind
So I bust the whip to corner store to go and get some more wraps
I’m tryna smoke one before the sun come up in the morn' while I mourn
I feel like it ain’t ever gonna get any better
But I put on my best shoes, pants and shirt to shine to through cloudy weather
I know I'm about to take the next hit from life like it's Floyd Mayweather
My papa getting too old
I’m bout to grab pen and a paper cause his story almost done being told
Shit, my daddy and my brother too
They went out early, I saw it happen now there’s only a few
So count my half sister in and that makes only two
I know she feel the pain like I do, growing up confused
Found out there’s more to this life
You just gotta watch for the clues
Every time I lose my way, I turn to drugs I swear that it’s on cue
Cinderella has a glass slipper
Why I feel stuck in my shoes?
I just don’t know what to do..
How would you feel if the world suddenly turned its back you?
They look at me distastefully, but my testimony is in my tattoos
My story, my struggles, you’ll never know because you think you do

Born in this world Bryan Michael Lovell
But my real identity’s blvv..
And that's something you never knew...

Now sit back, relax... and reset